Sunday, July 12, 2009

To Rony-with love....


Even as a toddler,i loved dogs.Inspite of my sister & my repeated pleas,our parents never got us a pup,saying we wont be able to go Kolkata again,leaving the pup behind.Even after all that,the desire for my own pup never ceased & I would continue my quest for my "dream pup".

I dunno from where it came but one day i saw a tiny pup sitting infront of my building with a couple of older dogs.

First thing you would notice about Rony was her tail which would wag endlessly.Within no time,she became my playmate & best friend.We were like Alice & her rabbit & she would follow me everywhere,to my school,play grounds,music classes & even run behind my bicycle when we would go cycling around our colony.Pranks,secret journeys,discoveries of hidden roads ,birthday celebrations..she was always around.

Rony had share of everything we ate,cakes,biscuits,chocolates & even coke!She was not just my best friend,but also a patient listener,someone I would confide all my worries & secrets.Not that she was able to pass any judgement or criticism but at times just to have someone listening to you helps a lot.

On the day of my science exam,just days before my 13th birthday,I was still revising the notes &
walking down when I noticed she was not in her usual place.Down the lane,something was sprawled in the middle of the road but I ignored it cause of the exam tension.After coming home, I was searching her when my neighbour asked if Rony had died.I thought she was kidding until my mom told it was true & the thing sprawled in the middle of the road was Rony in a pool of blood.She was hit by a bike & later on my neighbours had removed her body before I could discover .It semed like some cruel joke but it was true.

Rony didnt get the share of my 13th birthday cake & it almost seemed like God's punishment letting me into the teenage without my best friend & confidant.

Now,even though I m so far off from the tranquility of Ranchi & my colony,I still cherish Rony s loving memories and the childhood she made so special.

Its almost like a whirligig when I see that popular commercial,where the little girl is followed by her pup everywhere; my childhood days come rushing back,days which would have been so dull & incomplete without my pup.

When my friends jeer at me calling me a bitch,I retort instantly by saying,"Bitches are actually too good....I had one!!"








Monday, June 22, 2009

Alone.

Standing today-alone
the world seems apart

Standing near the sea
its salty waters touching my feet
reminding me of approach

Approach of parents,friends & god

Alone as i walk down the beach.
I wish to see those on the other side.

But that endless expanse reminds me-
There is nobody.
you are alone-down the salty road I travel

The mirages on this ocean
seem like the smiles I see..
as I smile back-
they disappear

The sun on the horizon
sets gradually leaving me stranded in darkness & despair

light seems to willow out from all corners
I remember the good times

those times when there was light all around
the laughter,cheerfulness & gaity
friends,enjoyment & laughter again & again

but..............
these are bygone now
no friends,no laughter,no gaity

all alone today

all the light has gone out

I can hear the waves dancing,
making merry ,splashing & gay......
but as they come near me......
they disappear...............

I hold out my hands
nothing comes but the salty water

that laughter seems an alien sound
in an alien world
where all my people are-my parents,my friends,my past

Aloof I stand in this darkness

Waiting for the sun to light up.
Waiting for a dawn
Waiting for a beginning
Waiting for a Renaissance.............